5 Years Today - Chemo Sucks -

As I pulled into the parking lot at work today I thought a random uninvited thought, "I'm glad I had cancer." The second this came into my realization I worked really hard to push it out of my mind, but it was there. And I entered the office with a grateful heart.

I pulled open my computer, logged on, and Facebook popped up, and the first thing that came on that screen was the "Five Years Ago" picture. And there it was:

FIVE YEARS ago today I finished my last round of chemo. This photo was taken that evening, by Nick, who did a great job documenting my cancer journey. And let me tell you, I'm smiling here, but earlier that day I could hardly stand, needing the chemo nurses to hold me up and a wheelchair to get out of the chemo room and into my car:

That Facebook acknowledgement gave me some anxiety, and with it came many of the fears of chemo along with the realization that this is truly over, finished, gone, out of my life. And for that I am so grateful.